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Still Holding
Wave-battered, long enduring, these rocks are pressed in the place where land meets sea.
Tested by salt and time, they hold the shape of storms, a quiet strength.
Is their resilience commendable?
Or are they just wasting away-
each edge softened,
each line erased,
still holding fast because they know no other way?
I created this piece during a season of physical exhaustion. After carrying and nursing four children in the past eight years, my body was asking for something I couldn’t quite give it- rest, attention, maybe even acknowledgment. My back and shoulders ached. I was constantly dehydrated. The wear and tear wasn’t dramatic, but it was relentless.
While weaving, I began to wrestle with questions I hadn’t let myself ask out loud: Was it wise to have this many kids? If it’s this hard, am I doing something wrong?
Still holding became my answer- not a resolution, but a recognition. The imagery of the coastline- battered but shaped by the waves- felt true. Not crumbling, just enduring. Not thriving, but still here.
This is the second tapestry in What Holds, a series that explores the quiet weight we carry- and what carries us, even when we’re unsure.